jibun wo shinjite

i had a great weekend. slack at home, watch 'tokyo dogs', read 'the firm', went to watch 'my sister keeper'- nice, slack again. and slept super early. 9. wonderful. and my weekends are gone. good thing is i dun't feel so sianz and i'm taking notes faithfully today. bt i haven touch all my tutorials... oh no oh no.

on the other hand, i get to see my friend/senior properly ever since dunno when. the last time i rmb seeing u properly when i'm sec 3 on my birthday and when u came back sec. in jj uni. how sad right? coz i rmb in between we got see each other de,. during concert i think. bt somehow dint register in me... it's nice see u again and to chat with u over lunch before ur interview. hope the interview's a success **crossfingers** =D nxt tym we meet again for lyk half a day or something k .. lol. then back to sch, or rather club-bing arh.., quite fun doing painting. it's been a while. haha... oh yah, went to check out for mst tt bt dun't have. saw 09/10 Sem1 honours roll instead. seriously, so many are in honours roll lah.... envy envy... and also motivate me to study harder.... yes yes, i'll do tht.=D after anniversary, it's time to hit the books.. discipline,integrity,responsibility, respect, resilence,compassion, pride in work & teamwork. haha

apparently, i'm still here. just to get some thoughts off from my small brian. why is it possible that a friend that u knw can treat u lyk almost non-existence bt is not to ur friend? it's juz weird and funny. i dunno wht to say abt it.imagine 10 years, no 5 years down the road, u meet ur friend on the road. when u greet him/her, u'r being ignored. how will u feel? sad? puzzles? and wht if this situation happens just within a year? how will u feel? how will u react? is it true that through some events, it's able to allow u to know ur friends better? bt is it also true tht once events' over, everything's back to square one, back to status quo - not knowing each other? i have no definate answer.
i find that i've been drifting ever since sch starts. and also i miss my friends alot. friends that i can be free from worries cause we'r of a slightly different route nw. oh well, nostagical moments coming in ,....

audit test's tmr. and am not prepared.=(
camp's over. am really really glad. it made me realise alot of stuffs. certain things can't be taken for granted. and the saying of everybody plays a part. even if it's a small role, it's still significant. it's so true. surprise, thankful, greatful, worried, guilty and back to thankful and e cycle repeats... juz got to say, jiayou everyone.=D thing left to do is appreciation. e... i'm nt good with these kind of stuffs. anniversary's coming.. o my goodness.. so fast. 1 year since i started to be active huh. . time flies.
erm, everyone are somewhat competitive. it's just the degree of competitiveness i guess. how well.
it's stressful bt i'll be able to manage it. i do admit tht i'm not good in my studies bt at least my eq's nt tht bad and i'm doing things with my consicious ( liang xin). maybe, really haven found my studying method. how how how??
the story of bottle+stone+marbles+sand is interesting. i want to get that right. bt not at the expends of hurting ppl tht i knw and lossing myself along the way. too halo/ saint ler right?well, wish right? hmm, whatever that i've stated for studies during the holiday's are all buang arh... never follow never do them faithfully arh... aiyoyo.... after tmr after tmr.... it's a promise. after all i can't stand it being lost in tutorials and when i can't answer questions. it's a me thing lah. if u get it good, if u can't, i also dunno how to explain ler... oO... i realise tht i MISSED choir concert on sunday... sorry sorry, it was unintentional, was mentally too tired after camp... argh... damn sad lah... i hope nothing change anot there won't be a purpose anymore... oh no no...
hmm 9.40+ ler, tiime to accompany with audit ler..=(

lost.

if i had been more firm. oh well.

everchanging.

i don't lyk to make decisions. especially with things that i have no interest/ dun;t like at all...

oh myyyyyy..

chiong chiong choing. ...

everything that we do have an opportunity cost. i've to pritorise properly.

i want to go see choir. bt nxt week's so busy.

camp's coming. trying period. communications to be dealt carefully. i'm worried.
everyone's working and studying at the same time and are still coping with studies.
bt i'm not. how? facc freaks me out. and i've nt touch audit and cost. die. and camp stuffs not settle yet. i'm worried for briefing day, for night activity trail, for day & night department, for campers, for budget=money,for helpers/gls/station masters, for everything relating to camp.
how on earth did our seniors did those???

and i should be concentrating on my studies!!!.

life's unfair and we just have to deal with it and to see things in our perspective in a good way.

i guess there are certain stuffs i just can't do, can't break the barrier of my own.
how how how? i have to be positive!!
time is running very fast. crossing my fingers.
there's still academic, attitude, participation. all the important stuffs.. omg.... perserve on.
and i want to watch my sister's keeper.... cries... doubt i have the time to watch and the company to watch....
ok . time to do tutorials since now nothing can be done ler. with no related people online now... boo..=(

weird and have to get it over fast. time waits for no one.

whatever's e outcome, i can't controll it. accept and move on though it is like escaping.

breaking boundaries,independency,quick thinking,whatever,thinkness required.

tired,dozing.

legs sored. bt i think it's quite interesting. planning arn't easy. much appreciated, thank you. =D

tmr's e start of sem 2. new things. reach for my aim.

things still nt yet done. =\